That strange feeling

I've been doing pretty fine. I think.

Except for the occasional depressed sigh,
I am getting back into work,
going out with the boys and even running again.
I feel myself coming back, slowly.

It's all too suspicious, am i really that fine?
Or is depression just round the corner,
waiting to tumble my emotional house of cards?
I don't know.

Yet, there's this strange feeling again (like Fri night),
that strange comforting feeling.

~

You spoke about looking over your shoulder.
See that's the funny thing,
I feel as if I am not looking back,
but looking forward instead.

Looking forward to rediscovering myself, being happy,
and wondering how it would be like if we started all over again.

It's like I had a little peek into the future and
saw that everything would be fine,
and I'm looking forward to getting there.

Somedays I imagine how it would be like to start over,
you know, just taking it easy, hanging out, chatting,
going for a drink, a movie, laughing with each other.

There'll be the serious stuff to talk about for sure,
but there'll be time and place for that.
For now, maybe it's enough to remind ourselves of the good times.
Allow us to rediscover each other.

Maybe I'm completely wrong,
and we'll both end up with someone else.
It's just a feeling I have, this strange feeling.
I don't know, do you?

~

I hope you will find your heart again baby.
Maybe difficult times have made you jaded,
or maybe it's just me,but there's always a way out,
so don't give up ok?
It'll be fine, promise.
I love you. Lots.